Project Healthy: Day 01

I’m feeling the pressure now. The pressure of the reality that I HAVE to lose weight if I want to look good on my wedding day. And I really want to be healthy, too. LOL okay, so maybe it should be the other way around. Health first before vanity but my priorities are screwed up like that.

Also, I have just gotten news that two of my best and closest friends are getting married, soon. Finally, actually. They’ve been together for a decade already. (I used the word decade because it sounds more old than just saying 10 years. Hehehe.) She told me I’m one of the bride’s maids and I immediately panicked. I told her a long time ago to let me know at least a year before their wedding date so I’ll have ample time to get “ready”. But seriously, knowing how much of a procrastinating fool I am, I’d have probably slacked off for a few months before getting all worked up in the last minute. So now, I’m all sorts of panic and excitement. I hope to lose at LEAST, 25 lbs before August. I hope I can do this!

So I enrolled in a gym nearest me that passed my standards. It’s not so big but it’s near, well-ventilated (I abhor stuffy gyms that smells of sweat and other horrible things from other people–YUCK!!!) and clean. I learned that they open at 6:30 every morning and I immediately liked it. I planned to go there early today (7am kinda early) but I woke up at 7:30-ish. LOL. Hopeless slacker! So I took a quick shower, ate very little meal, had a banana and a cup of coffee. I took a 1L bottle of water with me along with a towel, an extra shirt and just enough change for fare to get me there and back home.

Le programme de gymnastique. ;-)

My gym program it says right there in French. Fancy. haha :-D

I need more gym clothes if I’m going to go there five days a week. I need more t-shirts, shorts, sports bra and socks. I’m buying some today. I don’t want to put it off because I know myself too well. If I give my lazy ass some time to put off doing things, then I’ll end up not doing anything at all. And I want to invest some money to it (by buying clothes) so I’ll be driven to use them because I’ve spent on them.

I should also get back to being strict on my calorie counting. Ohh, boy. This is the tricky part but I can do it. I did it before and I’ll do it again. Also bought glucometer strips yesterday so I’ll be able to truly gauge my progress internally as well.

I am excited with all these. I guess, this decision to pick up the slack and get going to being healthy will exercise both my body and my will-power (discipline). I’ll go back to monitoring everything. Monitoring works for me. It gives me something to grasp on and some accountability. I find the figures encouraging. I know my decline started when I stopped monitoring my calorie intake and exercise minutes because I thought I was “good” enough to not bother.

I spent 2 hours at the gym today and I feel great! Best decision yet, so far. I’ll dance with the machines again tomorrow and I’ll be early. I like it when it’s not so full of people and the only sounds I hear are the whirring of the cables and the clinking of the weighing plates and my breath. It’s a comforting lull to my thoughts that allows me to muse about things.

Reminders

There are so many of these things circulating around facebook these days. Some are funny, others too funny bordering on offensive, others, just plain offensive, and then there are some who are poignant, encouraging and heart-wrenching. This one I grabbed from one of those pages and I truly loved it.

They are truths and they somehow, are comforting. You know there are kinds of truth that are brash and are just painful? Then there are those that hurt just because it was told in a way to hurt. But these, they are soothing and even forgiving, in a way.

All seven brought a smile to my face and I find myself nodding and agreeing with every one of them. That’s why I decided to “keep” a copy for myself. Just in case I’d feel so low someday that I find myself being the worst judge of me, the unforgiving critic of my every mistake. I hope to find comfort in these.

♥ It is nice to be reminded that the past is done with and should not cast such tall shadows on our present and future.

♥ Those pesky sanity eaters we call gossip too often a time just ruins things for us. While we may find it offensive and even stake it as grounds for breaking friendship, sometimes, we just need to back away and let things be. We cannot control how others think about us as much as they cannot control what we think about them. Live and let live.

♥ Disappointments and heart breaks are nasty stuffs. It can lead some of us into depression and even isolation, thinking we’re all alone in our battles and that ours are just the most difficult so we push everyone away. And we want to get over them. The soonest. But who doesn’t right? But there’s always lessons to be learned in everything. And it’s my experience that the most painful of experiences teaches the most valuable lessons and  that they are likely the ones that are hard to forget. So let’s let time do its job and let’s concentrate on our jobs as well. Learn.

♥ You cannot give what you do not have. You have to find yourself first and be whole in your own before you can give yourself to complete others. The same goes for other people. Don’t get fooled into thinking that the broken down can patch you up. You complete yourself. Don’t go into a relationship bringing your broken and messed up self into the table and expect to be magically made whole. Healing is a business done in your own time and by your own self. It matters not if you’re alone or with someone. If you’re broken, you are broken. Don’t corrupt others by throwing your mess at them. They have their own wounds to lick, too. Don’t be selfish.

 ♥ Unless you’ve walked a mile and more in another person’s shoes, you have no idea what’s his/her life is like. Unless you’ve felt every pain, shed every tears, battled through every storms, ached with every brokenness, died with every death of the soul, you know nothing. That’s why it’s important to be kind.

♥ It’s useless to waste precious time being bothered over something you cannot do anything about. We’re not meant to know everything. Have patience. Everything comes to those who wait, and answers, too.

♥ Be grateful for everything that you have. Even for the air we take so seriously for granted.  Cherish everything, strive for whatever is lacking but don’t forget to enjoy. I believe we’re meant to take things step by step, one day at a time. Leave tomorrow’s burdens for tomorrow. Everything has its own due time. Your only stake is today. Enjoy if for the present that it is.